“I sit at my desk and waves of anxiety and stress keep washing over me and then receding. I struggle to put my fingers on the keyboard and write this article. I know that it is time to work—but I fight with these emotions. I feel low and lack motivation—but it is time to work. I have trained myself well to fight to ‘get on with it’ and be the academic I am supposed to be, putting aside the service user identity. The tension between the 2 worlds of being and becoming; a service user and a social work academic”...